Hi there,
I certainly didn't think death was so close but following a big operation and being under sedation for weeks, it really is just a slip away.
Of courser serious operations have risks but I had no idea I would be asked to choose options when I was essentially delusional. That's what happened though.
Struggling to breathe due to my own long term stupidity and now all those tubes and masks connected to my face was so hard when it went on for 4+ weeks. I was just about ready to come home when I developed a free running nose bleed.
They don't know what caused it but they suspect the constant use of nasal prongs to supply oxygen may have been the cause. I can say that nose bleed was so free running the only thing that stopped it was a balloon up each nostril. And that took 3 days to achieve.Painful and so scary. The initial nose bleed actually just ran free while a doctor watched and told me to pinch it closed. Left me there for 20 minutes like that and only a nurse calling emergency aid saved me.
You see, pinching that nostril closed only achieved leaking into the other nostril, down the back of my throat, and, yes, from my left eye. I was too scared to be scared really if that makes sense but if that nurse hadn't called the specialists I wouldn't be typing this today.
And how dumb are we, the public. We smoke and smoke. There were people in hospital while I was there who snuck out to smoke, waiting cardiac assistance. How dumb are we human beings. I gave up 8 years ago but I smoked forever first. You want to smoke? Well, expect the suffering as it WILL come. When you're lying there with your life ebbing away ask yourself "Why did I smoke?"
I certainly didn't think death was so close but following a big operation and being under sedation for weeks, it really is just a slip away.
Of courser serious operations have risks but I had no idea I would be asked to choose options when I was essentially delusional. That's what happened though.
Struggling to breathe due to my own long term stupidity and now all those tubes and masks connected to my face was so hard when it went on for 4+ weeks. I was just about ready to come home when I developed a free running nose bleed.
They don't know what caused it but they suspect the constant use of nasal prongs to supply oxygen may have been the cause. I can say that nose bleed was so free running the only thing that stopped it was a balloon up each nostril. And that took 3 days to achieve.Painful and so scary. The initial nose bleed actually just ran free while a doctor watched and told me to pinch it closed. Left me there for 20 minutes like that and only a nurse calling emergency aid saved me.
You see, pinching that nostril closed only achieved leaking into the other nostril, down the back of my throat, and, yes, from my left eye. I was too scared to be scared really if that makes sense but if that nurse hadn't called the specialists I wouldn't be typing this today.
And how dumb are we, the public. We smoke and smoke. There were people in hospital while I was there who snuck out to smoke, waiting cardiac assistance. How dumb are we human beings. I gave up 8 years ago but I smoked forever first. You want to smoke? Well, expect the suffering as it WILL come. When you're lying there with your life ebbing away ask yourself "Why did I smoke?"
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