Hi Y'all,
So, do you have much trouble getting to sleep or waking up?
These days I don't as I can go to bed any time I want. I finished work you see so when I slept became irrelevant to my life. That pressure of having to get up in time to get ready and go to work just wears you down doesn't it?
I know there are SOME people who have got a job they love and to them work is not really work so sleeping is easier for them.
The rest of us? We settle for work where we can and try to make the best of it. I made a career out of what I did and I genuinely felt good about what I did, how I did it and how others felt about my efforts.
During all my working life though I had a real nasty problem of not being able to sleep due to worrying about pretty petty stuff. It kept me awake all night at times so I had to get up and go to work at the appointed time with no sleep. Some will say that lying down all night is, at least, REST. Well, I would dispute that when your brain is so actively occupied in worrying that you never get any sleep OR rest. You are really tired etc. but sleep is not possible at least until you get through the day at work and get home again.
I went through that for many years, most nights did eventually get to sleep but it took hours. Unless I got drunk or stoned of course. As a result I drank more, smoked more and got more sleep but was still as tired as hell. I've felt really tired since I was 10 years old when PTSD hit me as a result of a fatal car accident in which I was the only conscious one, at 10 years old. Lost two family members and saw everything, with horror.
But that was then. Now I don't have trouble sleeping but I also have NO sleep pattern. Which is OK as I don't have those work commitments. My writing I can do whenever I feel like and am inspired to doing so. That's my work these days.
So, how do you manage and cope with that sleeplessness and the pain of having to get up at a certain time?
One thing that Depression does do for me is to make me feel better in a day when I stay awake longer, and longer. It's called a diurnal mood pattern. All that means is that most of us have a mood pattern which is consistent. For example, I feel worse in the morning, or first wake up time and feel better the longer I stay awake. So often I do stay awake as long as I can, within reason, to get that "better" feeling. Other people though are feeling better on waking and deteriorate as the day goes on.
These opposing mood patterns give rise to the sayings of being a "night" or "morning" person. In fact you are one of those categories.
In summary I have to say I love sleep, maybe because it was so elusive for so long but sleeping is wonderful. Dreams come with it too and nightmares are way less frequent than earlier in my life.
So, do you have much trouble getting to sleep or waking up?
These days I don't as I can go to bed any time I want. I finished work you see so when I slept became irrelevant to my life. That pressure of having to get up in time to get ready and go to work just wears you down doesn't it?
I know there are SOME people who have got a job they love and to them work is not really work so sleeping is easier for them.
The rest of us? We settle for work where we can and try to make the best of it. I made a career out of what I did and I genuinely felt good about what I did, how I did it and how others felt about my efforts.
During all my working life though I had a real nasty problem of not being able to sleep due to worrying about pretty petty stuff. It kept me awake all night at times so I had to get up and go to work at the appointed time with no sleep. Some will say that lying down all night is, at least, REST. Well, I would dispute that when your brain is so actively occupied in worrying that you never get any sleep OR rest. You are really tired etc. but sleep is not possible at least until you get through the day at work and get home again.
I went through that for many years, most nights did eventually get to sleep but it took hours. Unless I got drunk or stoned of course. As a result I drank more, smoked more and got more sleep but was still as tired as hell. I've felt really tired since I was 10 years old when PTSD hit me as a result of a fatal car accident in which I was the only conscious one, at 10 years old. Lost two family members and saw everything, with horror.
But that was then. Now I don't have trouble sleeping but I also have NO sleep pattern. Which is OK as I don't have those work commitments. My writing I can do whenever I feel like and am inspired to doing so. That's my work these days.
So, how do you manage and cope with that sleeplessness and the pain of having to get up at a certain time?
One thing that Depression does do for me is to make me feel better in a day when I stay awake longer, and longer. It's called a diurnal mood pattern. All that means is that most of us have a mood pattern which is consistent. For example, I feel worse in the morning, or first wake up time and feel better the longer I stay awake. So often I do stay awake as long as I can, within reason, to get that "better" feeling. Other people though are feeling better on waking and deteriorate as the day goes on.
These opposing mood patterns give rise to the sayings of being a "night" or "morning" person. In fact you are one of those categories.
In summary I have to say I love sleep, maybe because it was so elusive for so long but sleeping is wonderful. Dreams come with it too and nightmares are way less frequent than earlier in my life.
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